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After struggling and staying at 185 for quite some time, I FINALLY lost another pound and gotto 184.  I have 12 days until I go wedding dress shopping and I am very excited!!! So the more I can get off the better!!!!

So I have lost 14 pounds and droppped a pants size!!!! So last night I went and bought myself a new pair of pants. Only one pair though because I plan to be in even smaller ones very soon. I was not that far away from a size 10 which made me very happy. About 5 to 10 more pounds and those would fit perfectly!!! I have 5 weeks until I go to try on wedding dresses and 15 pounds that I want to get rid of. So I made myself a new goal of 3 pounds a week. I know I can do it if I put my mind to it. I bought BenG a set of dumbells and I have been using them as well. I can’t wait to not look fat in my wedding dress!!!

So I am down 12 pounds and I am keeping up with my 2 pounds a week amazingly well!!! I feel like I will be skinny in no time. My goal is to be 150 by my birthday on June 4th and then if I make it, I have decided to peirce my belly button!!! It is something I have always wanted to do but never had the convidence to go through with it. I am hoping to be 170 by the last week in march because that is when I am going wedding dress shopping. My mom is refusing to wait any longer than that. She is very excited about shopping for a dress. So hopefully I can get there. I feel very good about my progress.

So I am down 10 pounds only 29 more left. I have a feeling that if I reach my goal weight I might want to go a little bit farther and get to 150. but, when that time gets here i guess i will make that decision. I get my engagement pictures taken tomorrow!!! Very excited exspecially since I am 10 pounds skinner. Ben my fiance is also on a diet and also wants to lose 40 pounds. He has lost 15 pounds so far and looks absolutly AMAZING. I can’t wait to get married!!!!!

So I set a date for my wedding and it is only 9 months away!!! eeekkk!!!! I have 9 months to lose 45 pounds. Which is completly realistic, however very daunting. I want to be sexy at m wedding no feeling like a fat ass. Which right now is how I feel. I’ve been with Ben for 5 years so he saw me when I was a skinner, sexier me. Although he could care less about my weight I care and I need this to feel good about myself. 2 pounds a week is my goal for now, lets see how it goes!!!

So I’ve been having back problems(partially due to posture). I just found out that when I stand up straight I am 5′8″ not 5′7″. Changes all my BMI calculations.

So after a week and a half of crazy horrible back pain my doctors tell me it is cronic back pain that I will deal with for the rest of my life. She gave me a TON of meds(which I hate) and released me to work out again!!!! So my goal is to be 180 by Valentines day. I gotta get sexy for my man by then at least. When I weighed myself this morning I was194. I have 14 pounds to lose in 4 1/2 weeks. Definitly possible.

I am not a skinny girl. I have a big ass and big boobs. I have LOTS of curves and I love it. Yes, I need to lose some weight to be healthy but seriously there is such a thing as too skinny. It is okay to eat a twinkee every once in a while. I don’t see why women and girls have the need to be so skinny. Show your body, be proud of who you are. You are unique. You are the only you that there will ever be. We are only given a very short time on this world you need to live your life to the fullest. It’s okay to not look like a photoshoped model in a magazine. Do what makes you happy, have a piece of cake (but only one, lets not get carried away).

 BE PROUD TO BE A WOMAN, SHOW OFF YOUR CURVES. NO MAN WANTS TO BE WITH A BAG OF BONES.

So my amazing boyfriend got me a wii for christmas and I just got enough money to go get a wii fit. I am so excited!!! Usually, I am at the gym for like an hour a day but since I got my puppy floyd I haven’t been, because I don’t want to leave him at home alone for that long on top of being at work. Does anyone have Wii sucess stories?

I work at a school that is very food oriented. We absolutely LOVE food. Every day this week there have been cookies, donuts, cake, chili, tamales, cassoroles and everything else imaginable. I have to walk through our staff lounge and I have stopped more than once. It is damn good homemade yummy deliousness. This morning I refused to weigh myself because I knew it would not be pretty. I hate being a food addict. Unlike drugs and alcohol you need food to live. It makes it so much harder.